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Everything started on 27th June 2010 (Sunday). Just because i broke 2 of her flower pots and she began to start the WWIII.My grandmother wanted me to clear the mess myself without any help from anyone but my aunt came to help. My aunt tried her best to help me but she was scolded by my grandmother. I felt really guilty to see my aunt get scolded by my grandmother just because of the flower pots. I could see that my aunt treated me really good, but i really can't take it anymore. I believe if anyone is in my shoe now, you will also feel the same way as me. So, I told my aunt after i cleared the mess, I will leave this house. It was obvious that my aunt wouldn't want me to leave but what can i do??? I really can't take it anymore...imagine you are scolded by your family members for no reason, how will you feel? Obviously is hurt, angry and sad right? After i lefted the house, my aunt tried to convince me over and over again not to leave. I felt sad upon seeing how hard she try her best to asked me to leave. Not only i am soft-hearted, friends around me also asked me not to leave. Especially Qianyi, i really have to thanks her for accompanying me yesterday. As well as Spancer, Shafina, Carin, JiaHui, Mr Gek and Mrs Hie. Without you guys, i believe i had made the wrong choice...

Well, let me share my feeling with you all now. Everything happened since the day she came back from her trip...I don't know what thing made her to be so hot-tempered but i onli know she kept scolding everyone from morning to night time. It is obvious that she's not happy with us... but i don't know what did i do wrong....I just don't understand what did i do to deserve all this things??? On the 28th of June, I went to school as holidays had offically ended...sigh...I tried my best to make myself happy because i believe none of my friends would want to see me feeling sad. Hanging with my friends made me feel happier but after i get home, my mood started to change again. I felt sad and always wanting to leave the house and also to cry. So this is why i am here typing this comopsition out. Trying this out is to make me feel better. This idea was suggested by Shafina and i think it's useful...Imagine whenever i got home, I got no mood to study. I'm re-taking my 'N' this year and yet this type of things happen to me. I'm taking my 'N' Level English Oral in a week time and i don't think i will perform well. IF I FAIL MY ENGLISH ORAL, I WILL NEVER EVERY FORGIVE YOU!!!! BEAR THIS IN MIND... I don't mean to do all this but you are the one who forced me to do all this. Everyone asked me :"Are you okay?!?!?!?!". I had no choice but to answer :" Yes, I'm okay". Other than this, what can i answer my friends? They were so concerned of me then in the end i actually had to lie to them. By right, i'm feeling miserable from the bottom of my heart :(

(ps. to those who had read this, i'm sorry to actually hide my feeling to you guys. I just don't want you guys to try your best to make me feel happy.)

13 years ago, i was a mischevious girl who stole money at home. After my family knew that i was the thief who stole their money, I was severly punished. Mother used handle to whack me, father scolded me and wanted to refer me to the police, Aunt canned both of my hands till it's swollen. After receiving all these punishments, I had decided to turn over a new leaf. The problem is, i did changed...but none of them seems to believe that i had changed. I felt really disheartned. Why am i trying so hard to change my attitude and yet none of them accepted me????Everything that went missing, I was the one who they questioned...no other people. WHY, WHY, WHY?!?!?!?!?!?!? Just because i was once a theft??? Or everyone at home disliked me??? I was rather stupid to hide my feelings and suffered in the end. What i did was to take a pen knief to cut myself. Luckily i met Miss Wong, who helped me to stop all this. Because of her, i stopped cutting. After hearing her life experiences, i think i was really stupid to do all this things...I promised her not to cut anymore because somehow i think Miss Wong was right. CUTTING DOESN'T SOLVED ANY MATTER. So, what's the point of cutting? I used to think that although cutting couldn't solve any problems, but it made me feels happy. I did lied to her that i had quitted cutting but in fact, i haven't. Trust me, once you are addicted to cutting, it's hard to quit...

There's another thing i don't really understand too. I used to have a family. Father, mother, and two sisters. Although i used to have a family, but it's imperfect now. Mother had been separated from us due to some reasons. My mother will never ever come back to us anymore. Why is this happening to me?????? 6 years ago, when i was sitting for my PSLE, I didn't score well due to family problems. 2 years ago, while i was having my EOY exams, i didn't performed well too. Why???? Because of family problems. What i could do is to cry secretly without anyone knowing... I didn't told anyone why was my results terrible...I just told them that i'm not a bright children who could study. At that time, I felt like giving up on my studies. I had lost everything...


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♠ Monday, June 28, 2010 ♠ Monday, June 28, 2010 Everything started on 27th June 2010 (Sunday). Just because i broke 2 of her flower pots and she began to start the WWIII.My grandmother wanted me to clear the mess myself without any help from anyone but my aunt came to help. My aunt tried her best to help me but she was scolded by my grandmother. I felt really guilty to see my aunt get scolded by my grandmother just because of the flower pots. I could see that my aunt treated me really good, but i really can't take it anymore. I believe if anyone is in my shoe now, you will also feel the same way as me. So, I told my aunt after i cleared the mess, I will leave this house. It was obvious that my aunt wouldn't want me to leave but what can i do??? I really can't take it anymore...imagine you are scolded by your family members for no reason, how will you feel? Obviously is hurt, angry and sad right? After i lefted the house, my aunt tried to convince me over and over again not to leave. I felt sad upon seeing how hard she try her best to asked me to leave. Not only i am soft-hearted, friends around me also asked me not to leave. Especially Qianyi, i really have to thanks her for accompanying me yesterday. As well as Spancer, Shafina, Carin, JiaHui, Mr Gek and Mrs Hie. Without you guys, i believe i had made the wrong choice... Well, let me share my feeling with you all now. Everything happened since the day she came back from her trip...I don't know what thing made her to be so hot-tempered but i onli know she kept scolding everyone from morning to night time. It is obvious that she's not happy with us... but i don't know what did i do wrong....I just don't understand what did i do to deserve all this things??? On the 28th of June, I went to school as holidays had offically ended...sigh...I tried my best to make myself happy because i believe none of my friends would want to see me feeling sad. Hanging with my friends made me feel happier but after i get home, my mood started to change again. I felt sad and always wanting to leave the house and also to cry. So this is why i am here typing this comopsition out. Trying this out is to make me feel better. This idea was suggested by Shafina and i think it's useful...Imagine whenever i got home, I got no mood to study. I'm re-taking my 'N' this year and yet this type of things happen to me. I'm taking my 'N' Level English Oral in a week time and i don't think i will perform well. IF I FAIL MY ENGLISH ORAL, I WILL NEVER EVERY FORGIVE YOU!!!! BEAR THIS IN MIND... I don't mean to do all this but you are the one who forced me to do all this. Everyone asked me :"Are you okay?!?!?!?!". I had no choice but to answer :" Yes, I'm okay". Other than this, what can i answer my friends? They were so concerned of me then in the end i actually had to lie to them. By right, i'm feeling miserable from the bottom of my heart :( (ps. to those who had read this, i'm sorry to actually hide my feeling to you guys. I just don't want you guys to try your best to make me feel happy.) 13 years ago, i was a mischevious girl who stole money at home. After my family knew that i was the thief who stole their money, I was severly punished. Mother used handle to whack me, father scolded me and wanted to refer me to the police, Aunt canned both of my hands till it's swollen. After receiving all these punishments, I had decided to turn over a new leaf. The problem is, i did changed...but none of them seems to believe that i had changed. I felt really disheartned. Why am i trying so hard to change my attitude and yet none of them accepted me????Everything that went missing, I was the one who they questioned...no other people. WHY, WHY, WHY?!?!?!?!?!?!? Just because i was once a theft??? Or everyone at home disliked me??? I was rather stupid to hide my feelings and suffered in the end. What i did was to take a pen knief to cut myself. Luckily i met Miss Wong, who helped me to stop all this. Because of her, i stopped cutting. After hearing her life experiences, i think i was really stupid to do all this things...I promised her not to cut anymore because somehow i think Miss Wong was right. CUTTING DOESN'T SOLVED ANY MATTER. So, what's the point of cutting? I used to think that although cutting couldn't solve any problems, but it made me feels happy. I did lied to her that i had quitted cutting but in fact, i haven't. Trust me, once you are addicted to cutting, it's hard to quit... There's another thing i don't really understand too. I used to have a family. Father, mother, and two sisters. Although i used to have a family, but it's imperfect now. Mother had been separated from us due to some reasons. My mother will never ever come back to us anymore. Why is this happening to me?????? 6 years ago, when i was sitting for my PSLE, I didn't score well due to family problems. 2 years ago, while i was having my EOY exams, i didn't performed well too. Why???? Because of family problems. What i could do is to cry secretly without anyone knowing... I didn't told anyone why was my results terrible...I just told them that i'm not a bright children who could study. At that time, I felt like giving up on my studies. I had lost everything... « older newer »