Let's talk about my family issue first... I don't follow my parents since young.... So i will never know how despicable my mother is... School fees also don't want to pay. Are you so broke till you can't even pay my school fees?? If you don't wanna pay, say so la... You took all my money and never contact me anymore... Ask yourself this question. "Are you FIT to be my biological mother??" I don't think you are.... I always ask myself to forgive and forget the sins that you had committed... So what if i gave you chance over and over again?? Did you even cherish the chance i give you each time?? You know the answer yourself... I don't think you will ever feel remorseful.. Usually i will tell all my problems to my aunt but not now.... Just want you to know i am not as stupid as you think... Yes, i may fail in everything i do but i'm willing to stand up from the place where i fell and continue with life.... Although i did so much of stupid/immature thing in the past, i'm already a grown up child. I'm matured enough to think of the consequences...

Next, i really lose interest in studying already... Everyday go to school also get scolding... Attire check is seriously waste of time... why not make use of this time to study?? We can probably learn new things... or even clear our doubts with teachers... Haven't even finish my art coursework... I'm so behind time la... Why?? Why will i even become like this?? I promised to study hard, but what happened in the end?? Instead of studying, i'm slacking.... hais.... sometimes i wonder if i am even ready for the O Levels hurdle??

Lastly, i guess there are some misunderstanding between my unit. Including the teachers... I guess there are some misunderstanding between us....I didn't do the proposal willingly... If i'm not wrong, i was asked to plan the POP when i was still in Red Cross. I wouldn't do if i was not told to do so. I did the proposal because i have the sense of responsibility. I will do things which are asked to and complete it on time.... I wish i can apologise to you for all the things i had done or say... but the problem is, i just don't know how to start the subject. No idea if you will listen to what i say.... it's up to you to decide...

Never mind... i'm willing to let go of what had happened recently and start a new life again. I don't want all this problems to haunt my life down... It's really miserable to think of how to solve all this problems... I have to cry to sleep every night... Isn't this pathetic?? Cry to sleep leh..... why will u even cry to sleep?? :(