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♠ The Dango
JANE♥ Currently doing Pastry and Baking. First cried in 22nd Nov. I♥Apple tea. |
♠ Dango Buddies
Carin.Chen Hui. Joanna. Laura. PanLiang. QianYi. Renee. Tessa. WeiJian. |
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♠ Dango Talk
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CCA (RED CROSS) Life During Secondary School Time. ♠
Wednesday, December 28, 2011 ♠
Wednesday, December 28, 2011
Wouldn't I say that I went through joy and sorrow during Red Cross Training during CCA day. I see a change in myself since Secondary One till Secondary Five. Wowww... I can really say I changed a lot...I remember when I was a Secondary One student, as youngest recruit, I don't really like my CCA. I find it boring and torturous.. I tried changing CCA but the teachers there just don't let me off... Whenever I reached home, I would start complaining about this and that. Maybe i'm not fit to even be in Red Cross.. It's okay, they don't let me off, I started giving excuses like not feeling well, have tuition, parents don't allow, dental appointment, doctor appointment and etc, just to skip training.. Obviously I can't use all this excuses for long so I just bear with 3 1/2 hours of training.. This was how I behaved and it carried on till I reached Secondary Two. Until one day, i got back my result slip. The moment I looked at my conduct, it was a FAIR conduct. I was like questioning myself.. What's going on?? I no longer skipped CCA and attend every week. I told my Aunt about it and she called the teacher to clarify about this issue. What the teacher told my Aunt was, "Ohh.. she didn't even turned up for training." I was like wtf?!?! I was there every week.. I hate this kind of feeling la.. Though I attended training often, but I'm still not as committed as others until I reached Secondary Three, after being a NCO. We kept changing Red Cross teacher.. When i was in Sec Secondary Three, a new teacher came. I remember at the point of time, i broke my glasses and I couldn't see her clearly.. She introduced herself to us and i don't really like here. The moment i sees her, i started commenting... I don't know why.. I just don't like her.. Even though i don't like her, I still have to listen to her command.. As months passed, My relationship with my Red Cross teacher somehow got better.. I was asked to do this and that which resulted me to feel stressed up.. I was so stressed that I even went to do foolish things... How foolish of myself to do such things?? IKR!! STUPID ME... Yeah.. I told her everything.. Told her bout my family problems and stuff.. She was kind enough to be my listening ears and listen to the problems I was facing.. From there, I was counselled by her. Was told not to do foolish things anymore if not she will get it if anything unfortunate happens to me. So yeah.. I stopped thinking negatively and stay optimistic. :DD When I was a Secondary Four student, I was asked to do even more. However, I did not do foolish things when I was stressed. I looked for the teacher and shared my burden. I was asked to look for someone and share my workload. :DD Though i managed to get someone to help out, something misfortune happened.. A friend of mine, told me the reason why she couldn't get the Chairperson position. I was told the reason was because of my buddy and I. Because she always hang out with us, that's why she can't get her position as a Chairperson. I didn't get angry but asked for more details.. I was told that I, myself was a bad influence according to the teacher and Sir.. I influenced her in a bad way such that the teachers think that she's not good enough. I messaged my teacher to asked if I am a bad influence in RC?? She replied of course not.. I was the one who bring people together and made their day awesome!! I started questioning myself.. Who's telling the truth?? I got so upset and deprived for month... Nevermind... She even borrowed my RC Uniform and never wanting to return me. What i got back was uniform with paint, spoil, too big.. I got so pissed off .. Really pissed off... This issue started because of her and yet she borrowed my things and not wanting to return.. On the day itself, I shouted at her and that's when my water tap starts again.. I went home, sit in my room crying. My dad came in and asked why didn't I turn on the lights?? What happened to me?? I refused to answer him and my Aunt came in the next moment.. She was asking me what happened to me?? I told her what happened recently during training.. She immediately called my teacher and scolded her.. I told my Aunt it wasn't necessary to call her but she insisted on calling. After talking to her on the phone, she told my Aunt this. In RC, the kids are all fighting for position.. But no worries, she didn't get the Chairperson position not because of your niece. It's due to other reasons.. I told my Aunt i wasn't.. I don't mind being a normal cadet but why used my name?? The next day when i got back to school, I was told by the teachers this and that. They made it sounds like as if it was my fault.. I'm innocent.. After a few days, the teacher came to talk to me. She asked me what happened and etc.. I told her everything and she said she will give my Aunt an explanation ASAP. I did not pursue this matter anymore because I don't want to make my problem, her problem... Though i'm willing to let go of this matter, I'm not as happy each time i go back for training.. I was asked to go for Volunteer Instructor Programme to serve my Alma mater after I graduate from Secondary School. I was thankful to the teacher who never fail to ask me to go for VIP because this programme leave a great impact in my life. I think my attitude changed after I get back from this course. Finally, it was my last year as an advisor as a Secondary Five student. Hmmm.. I assisted the new teachers for the Cross Country First-Aid Duty. I thought my planning was perfect.. However, it wasn't.. Infact, it was a piece of shit to teachers.. Why?? I have had my ways of planning.. Why must i always go along with the teachers?? Can't they just go along with my idea?? I was in the classroom with 3 teachers and some juniors.. I was so pissed with the teacher that I shouted at her in front of teachers and juniors in the room. Everybody looked so stunned.. I was feeling bad because I went overboard.. No matter what, I shouldn't shout at a teacher. She once told me that 'A student should know its boundaries.' Yeah.. What's done is done. I can't turn back time.. I apologised ti her and she said she understands cause I starting to feel stressed with my school work.. Till the day where the seniors officially step down, I was told to plan for the up-coming Passing Out Parade.. I did plan but I planned during June holidays cause i couldn't find any time to do it.. That day i had to clarify something with the teachers.. I called her, and asked. I wondering if I'm taken for granted or people just used me as an achiever.. I was told that everyone had no idea that I was the one doing the POP Proposal all along. They thought it was done by the Juniors.. Hais... why is this so?? The teacher told me that she didn't ask me to plan for the POP.. I was the one doing it willingly.. After i hear this, I got so angry and upset.. I even told the teacher that, ' In future, if they need help, don't bother to approach me for help. I wash my hands off Red Cross matter.' Once again, this was a bit harsh and this might hurt the teacher.. But what's done is done.. We had a cold war ever since this incident happened.. However, either one will get soft-hearten and talk to each other. This time round, it wasn't me who talk to her. It was her who talked to me instead. Maybe she realised that she was in a wrong. It's okay.. I don't mind. So long as the misunderstanding there was cleared, I'm more than happy. I apologised for my wrong-doings and the teacher said she understand.. So yeah.. This was my RC life in RC.. Thank you for being such an understanding person. Without your presence, I believe i wouldn't be here, leading them with pride. Please don't give up on them. Let's fight and make it a successful one together!! :DD |
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